The last few weeks, I’ve been focused on just getting myself to the point where I’m able to do the absolute basics, walking, taking transit, spinning and the like. This week, though, I decided it was time to jump ahead and push a little farther outside of my current comfort zone (and back into my pre-injury one).
This week I took the Endeavour weekly yoga class. It was one hour of shaking and sweating, and even though I was hurting for a lot of it, I felt okay after. Yes, my ankle was sore all night, but sometimes it’s sore all night when I do nothing all day. Pushing myself was hard (and to be honest, emotional), but I still got some of the great emotional health benefits I’ve always gotten from yoga.
Aside from skating, yoga has been one of my top physical activities for years, it has always been great for both my mental and physical health. Going through a challenging time without the opportunity to move in ways that make me feel better was really hard.
I’m so glad that I’m able to practice again, but I’m also struggling to not judge myself for the amount that I’ve regressed, not just in terms of my left leg, but in terms of my flexibility and mobility in my hips and back. I’m working on being kind to myself, but that is a whole lot easier said than done, especially when you’re as competitive with yourself as I’ve been my whole life. I’m trying to take this opportunity to learn to expect less of myself and to accept myself and my body as I am, flaws and all, which has not been easy.
This is the first step of a whole lot for me in my journey to getting back to who I was on March 3, 2018, but, if I’m being totally honest, while that was my goal, I don’t think I’ll be the same person. This experience has changed me a whole lot, and I’ve grown more than I ever expected.
How have you overcome a physical limitation and your own expectations? What mistakes did you make that you can help me try to avoid? Let me know!